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The 22-year-old shining Cuban-American singer and songwriter Camila Cabello opened about her obsessive-compulsive disorder in 2018 in an interview and now the star has elaborated more about her mental state.

As in the recent post on Instagram, she shared about how she is fighting with her anxiety. She said ‘I was once scared of singing in public, I never sang in front of my parents just locking myself in the room and singing by myself, I cried when I saw my parents filming me through a door crack’.

Adding more she wrote that she even get teary-eyed when people sang Happy Birthday to her, she felt overwhelmed by the attention. She wrote I was nervous and anxious from the very start when I was little, I think the little me hasn’t left me yet, as she is stuck between her two personalities. See her 2-parts post below:

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I remember growing up hearing stories of the singers I loved, all the stories sounded the same, kids who would grow up performing for their families and putting on talent shows for their parents when they were little who grew up to be dazzling to me. I was the opposite, I never ever sang in front of my parents or friends and would get flustered when they would ask me to, I sang in my room when my parents left for Walmart and cried when one day I saw them filming me through the crack of the door, I got teary eyed when people sang happy birthday to me because people looking at me actually made me overwhelmed. I was generally incredibly nervous and socially anxious when I was little; and people always have this look of disbelief when I tell them that. I did an interview the other day where I got it again, the interviewer said something along the lines of “So… how’d you end up here?” The answer is, I feel like my whole life there’s been two Camila’s in me. There’s little Camila that is terrified of the unknown, is aware of all the ways everything can go wrong, (actually can picture them vividly lol), and thinks it’s safer to stay home than to play ball. Then there’s the other Camila. And she knows what she wants out of life, is aware of how little time I have to let little Camila run the show while time passes by, and grabs young me by the hand and forces her out the door saying “Let’s go. You’ll survive, and I’m not gonna miss out on this. Let’s go.” And that is literally how I can sum up how I’ve gotten to this point in my life. (I’m talking about as a person, not success.) remember feeling discouraged when I felt like some people were just “born” to do things. That they always had it in them. “They were always this outgoing, they always loved to entertain, they were always this bold, they were always this outspoken.” (…..continue)

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